It Starts...

I've been tired for two weeks straight and last week I was super emotional. I took a pregnancy test a week ago, but it was negative. Still, I was so tired and really I took the test 4 days before my period was due so it could have been wrong. Despite my previous negative test, I was so sure that I was pregnant. Two weeks ago I announced this to Joe and I have believed it ever since. I took another one three days after the first one I took. Negative. I couldn't believe it! I was having symptoms of pregnancy (excessively tired, emotional, a little queasy, constant urge to pee, 'dog nose', and my old 'pregnancy mask' on my cheeks was brightening), so why was my test showing up negative? I realized that I would have to accept that I wasn't pregnant. Sad. Those pregnancy symptoms stuck around though.

Today, I couldn't shake how tired I was. I was so grateful when Sophie laid down for a nap. She and I both ended up sleeping for 2 hours. It was heavenly. After I woke up though, I started to worry that something was really wrong with me. If I wasn't pregnant then why didn't I have any energy? It just didn't make sense. I decided to try one more pregnancy test just to make sure I wasn't pregnant. If it came back negative, I was going to schedule a doctor's appointment. So for the third time in a week, I took a pregnancy test (Yeah, yeah...3 times is excessive). This time though, it announced that I was in fact PREGNANT! I was right all along!

I couldn't wait to tell Joe. I went downstairs and saw that he and Sophie were playing with a small family photo album I made for her. It had pictures of all her cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents. Seeing it made me smile, because it gave me the perfect opening to tell them that I am pregnant. I mentioned to him that there was one free page in there for us to put a picture of our newest nephew, who was born yesterday, in there. He agreed. Then I said that we would need to free up another space for Sophie's brother or sister. Joe just smiled at me, not quite understanding. That smile grew even bigger though when I held up the positive pregnancy test. Sophie was excited, too, but only because she thought the stick was a toy to play with. Um, no...gross.

I am so excited about this baby, but nervous as well. Sophie had a two-vessel umbilical cord and ended up being IUGR, which led to a bunch of issues. In January, I became pregnant with baby number two. After bleeding for 2 weeks, I had a miscarriage at the end of January. They say that the third time's a charm though. I hope that is true. I don't think that I could emotionally handle another miscarriage. Still, this pregnancy is already starting out different than my second one. With my second pregnancy, I was spotting right away and I just knew in my gut that I wouldn't get to meet that baby. Right now my gut is telling me that this baby will make it. (It is also saying that I will have another daughter, so we'll have to see about that one.)

Thank you, Lord, for giving me another baby. I promise that I will love him or her with all of my heart and be the best mom that I can. Little baby, I can't wait to meet you!

My predictions: 
Gender - girl
Birthday - January 30, 2013
Weight - 6 lb 8 oz
Length - 19.5 inches
Lots of hair